By Zyrus Cruz |Staff Writer|
We often think that celebrities have it easy, but superstar Beyoncé Knowles begs to differ.
On Feb. 16, Beyonce’s documentary, “Life is but a Dream,” premiered on HBO, which opened our eyes to the complex life of this celebrity.
In the film we get to see inside of her personal life. She shares more than just her accomplishments and many blessings, but she also shares her personal conflicts with her father and former manager, Mathew Knowles, as well as her tragic miscarriage.
Interestingly enough this documentary was produced, edited, and directed by Beyonce herself. The film reveals clips from home videos with family and friends that show us just how family oriented she really is.
“At some point you need your support system. You need your family,” said Beyoncé.
Family is very important to Beyoncé as she is seen referencing them periodically throughout the film. Also, we get to see Beyoncé in her very raw form. Beyonce bares it all on the camera, with no make-up, no stylist, nothing but the real her.
“Thank God for my computer. Sometimes when there is no one to talk to, I talk aloud so that I can get all my thoughts out and try to figure out the issues that I’m having and try, I’m trying to find the answers,” Beyoncé said in the documentary. Many scenes in the film address the conflict with her father.
“It was hard. I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad. It was a stressful, sad, difficult time. But I had to let go,” said Beyoncé.
The distant relationship with her father was difficult and left her torn.
Beyoncé produced a track slightly after their separation entitled, “Listen,” where she pours her heart out about the experience. The film then goes into how she begins to feel more positive and how she has taken her life into her own hands.
“I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my s***!” said Beyoncé.
She speaks about music and how she wants people to listen and experience the music rather than to just listen to it.
“This album is so personal and such a labor of love that it almost sounds like no one should be able to judge it because its just from the heart.” said Beyoncé.
The film continues with revealing one of her most deepest secrets. For the first time she explains her tragic miscarriage.
“I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life,” she said.
“I picked out names and I envisioned what my child would look like. I was feeling very maternal. I flew back to New York to get a check up- and no heartbeat.”
Hearing her speak about her loss can bring a tear to anyone’s eye.
Beyoncé’s documentary continues with glimpses of her lucky husband Jay-Z and the first glimpse of their baby Blue Ivy.
“I felt like God was giving me a chance to assist in a miracle,” she said.
“There is something so relieving about life taking over you like that. You’re playing a part in a much bigger show. And that’s what life is. It’s the greatest show on earth.”
Beyoncé’s documentary is an up close and personal look into her life and anyone looking to get a little inspired or even a little bit of insight from the diva, should check out this film.